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I tried to write to you once
I tried to cry for you
But tears, like all else that belongs to this body
Are dried and useless
I try talking to you
I try talking about you
I …
I have written out our future in my head
(Prominent players being Happiness and Peace)
I try writing pretty words
(when all I want to do is scream)
I tried, damn I tried
But do you know how hard it is to love someone
When you have never been loved
Do you know how hard it is to show affection
When you have been shown none
Do you know how hard it is to feel beautiful
When you can only see yourself through someone else's eyes
Do you know how hard it is to have hope for the future
When your past is filled beyond capacity
With disdain and strife
Do you know what it is like to be an
Afterthought
I have sat in this same attitude for so long
I have forgotten all others
And though my bones have begun to ache
And my skin has begun to peel
I sit
Waiting for life's love to come and wash me away
I sit in this dimly light room
And through the slits of my blinds I watch life pass
And I wait
The tragedy being
I realized long ago that what I truly want
I can never obtain
Because what has been set cannot be unset
And though my soul thirsts for justice
I have no appetite revenge
And the will to set right what was once wronged
Died long long ago, somewhere between indifference and simplicity
And when you tell me to smile I smile
And when you tell me to laugh I laugh
All the while understanding that the light you bring
Is simply a distraction
And once you bore of me your distraction will flicker and falter
But
Here I will remain
In this room on this bed
Staring at this ceiling
Covered with sweat, body shaking, head reeling
Trying to forget the nightmare that tears through my slumber
For twenty something years I have dreamed the same dream
And for twenty something years I have laid awake in this bed
Covered with sweat, body shaking, head reeling
Trying to forget the nightmare that tears through my slumber
I thought that if you lied next to me
I thought that if you held me
One night
I could sleep
I could sleep through
One night
But I was wrong
Because you never came to me
You never held me
And the nights go on
I tried to cry for you
But tears, like all else that belongs to this body
Are dried and useless
I try talking to you
I try talking about you
I …
I have written out our future in my head
(Prominent players being Happiness and Peace)
I try writing pretty words
(when all I want to do is scream)
I tried, damn I tried
But do you know how hard it is to love someone
When you have never been loved
Do you know how hard it is to show affection
When you have been shown none
Do you know how hard it is to feel beautiful
When you can only see yourself through someone else's eyes
Do you know how hard it is to have hope for the future
When your past is filled beyond capacity
With disdain and strife
Do you know what it is like to be an
Afterthought
I have sat in this same attitude for so long
I have forgotten all others
And though my bones have begun to ache
And my skin has begun to peel
I sit
Waiting for life's love to come and wash me away
I sit in this dimly light room
And through the slits of my blinds I watch life pass
And I wait
The tragedy being
I realized long ago that what I truly want
I can never obtain
Because what has been set cannot be unset
And though my soul thirsts for justice
I have no appetite revenge
And the will to set right what was once wronged
Died long long ago, somewhere between indifference and simplicity
And when you tell me to smile I smile
And when you tell me to laugh I laugh
All the while understanding that the light you bring
Is simply a distraction
And once you bore of me your distraction will flicker and falter
But
Here I will remain
In this room on this bed
Staring at this ceiling
Covered with sweat, body shaking, head reeling
Trying to forget the nightmare that tears through my slumber
For twenty something years I have dreamed the same dream
And for twenty something years I have laid awake in this bed
Covered with sweat, body shaking, head reeling
Trying to forget the nightmare that tears through my slumber
I thought that if you lied next to me
I thought that if you held me
One night
I could sleep
I could sleep through
One night
But I was wrong
Because you never came to me
You never held me
And the nights go on
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Dear,
I'm too afraid to say your name,
I think you'd think I was weird if you realized
That guy that barely knows you
And that you've only talked to once or twice,
Is writing about you right now.
If all goes steady,
Then you had better get used to it.
Dear,
It's slowly progressing in little steps
But I know soon enough it'll fade for awhile,
It still feels so distant,
And the tension is building.
That is,
I'm building up hope
And tension is beginning to stress
My heartstrings.
Note to Self:
I've found that maybe my worst enemy
Is my reaction to what one person says
Rather than falling back upon
What several other people s
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,
the people look like ache,
shriveled and lost inside
their twisted interpretations of movement.
we're tired here,
spitting out apologies and
niceties, the things expected
of a well mannered member of society.
looking at the hands passing by,
wrinkled and lined with everything
they've loved-
it's exhausting to think of every life you've contained.
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he tasted of December, voracious love with
a pinch of sweet, sweet
tragedy
shimmer, dear,
where's your shimmer.
did you lose it when you lost your way?
she tasted of the night and pear blossoms and miracles
and kept her strength in a drawstring bag
looped at her hip
premade perfection isn't for those who wander or those who wonder
you can't have my forever
and I don't want
yours.
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This is the longest poem I have ever written so if you make it this far congratulations, and thanks.
© 2010 - 2024 rocky-loves-emily
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This is really really really really good. It really did make me cry and understand.